Dear Tyler I give a lot of advice to people when they feel sad about losing a loved one and it helps them alot. I jsut can't seem to get over or grieve for the lost of my mother 2 13 12. It will be a year soon. I lost my father 12 18 94 and as soon as I got over that hump, bam my mother passes. I isolate myself fom the family and contact them only through facebook and I just gave them my number on Thanksgiving day. I try to follow my own advice but just can't seem to push pass this. I know it is because I know my mother was murdered, she told me in meditation. I had a dream before she passed that her husband shot her with a needle. I feel it all through my being that this happened to her. When I did go back to michigan I stayed fo 5 months to heal myself from the pain that my moomy husband had caused me and I can honestly say that he was the only person I ever felt hate for. But I wa able to forgive him for molesting me, almost drowning me, beating me with a phone cord, intention cord and a belt and for shoving my noise in pee and whumping me with an newspaper like a dog among other things. I stayed there in my mother's house cooked, cleaned, took care of the grandkids that she had living with her and her planets that she loved so much. Ok I healed those wounds very quickly. Than I get back to Georgia and I start hearing that he have this women in my mother's house that my mother calleed and told me he was cheating on her with. Than I got back to a conversation that I had with him about god not forgiving people who have committed murder along with other conversations. For a while I convienced myself that God wanted me to hate him for the rest of my life. Because from age 6 when he came in our lives to 11, went to prision for 11 years than at 21 i ran into the arms of my ex husband just to get away from this child molester. Than after leaving my ex I find out that he was drugging me and rapping me among the things he done to my daughter. O my heavenly Father when is this going to be over? I know the answer is "when i want it to be"! I am a good women I do go things I don't have to convince myself that I am who I am. Because through it all I still look, feel and smell like roses. I love to hea people tell me that they wish they had my faith, I told them to stop wishing and just grab some fom me I have enough failth to go around. Nothing else Tyler just wanted to vent so that i could get this out of my system. I can't wait till I get in my own home with my own career, life, husband, kids, travel and much more! Happiness is ight at my door but grieve is there too from my mother's passing. Ok I am just going to open the door except my happiness and deny grief. I love you mommy but I gotta move from here, come back to your final resting place and solve this case once and for all.
I choose to change the subject & move right along. As in keep it moving. Now, I gotta see what sing comes to mind, right about now. We'll see! Thanks for allowing me to take that moment right there. However, He's been too too awesome & wonderful & caring & thoughtful to me for me to get stuck there. I'm sure there must be a reason for it all. Is it raining where you are T? It's raining here! Oh, & what's next? So u all are finished shooting the film or what? What comes after that? If so, all I can say is, that was fast after all. Even though I know there has to be more. I'm ready looking forward to seeing it & enjoying it. So make sure its really really really good! Lol... :-) And this time I didn't say, I don't wanna wait that long. Lol... Or how yall wait that long? Lol... But the other Sunday I told Tai & D'Andre about the new movie that's coming out May2014 & Tai's response made me just laugh my b*** off. It was too funny! 2014? Lol... He was in the back seat of the car & I turned around to look at him. Like I didn't think the same thing when I first heard/read. I thought it was a typo, at first. But I must say, this will be the first one that I can be able to go thru the long process. Lol... You are a busy man! :-) Ain't nothing wrong with that. And thank you for all your time, hours, days, thoughts & work that u put in to bring us such great things. Have I told u, I love u today? I love you! You're one of a kind. Believe me, if u wasn't I wouldn't be talking to you. :-) lol... Not at all! Consider yourself special & favored to have such compsny, as myself. And I, too feel the same way. Yess! Have a good weekend. Now let me get to some music up in here! :P
Jesus said, No man take my life; I lay it down that I might pick it back up again! Now, that's what u call powerful! :-)
Here is my prayer: If its God's will, that He would grant me the strength, wisdom & peace to bear any & all that He sees fit, for my life. And that no weapon formed against me be able to prosper & every tongue that rises against me be condemned. Yes, it says, Money answers ALL THINGS. The Spirit is not a thing! Ok, let me tell u something else I'm tired of - I'm so tired of ppl saying & feeling like their money is taking care of somebody else & or they are so much better because of a position it title they hold. Did not ppl see during what was called Recession that they ain't all that. Oh, no, how soon do we forget. But let something like this take place & we so-call loving & praying. The devil is a lie! Ppl tend to believe they are all so powerful, when they are not, not at all! Do u know, if it wasn't for God, I wouldn't like ppl! God knows too! He knows me much better than I know myself. So, I just stay away from most ppl cause if they push me the wrong wrong way. There will be a problem that no amount of money, title, position, etc can help them. What are you saying Sheneith? I'm saying, I Don't Fight My Own Battles! Anyway, why do we as ppl take it so hard when ppl leave this earth? I just thank God for what the enemy meant for bad that He meant for our good. Does it always feel good? No but It works out for our good. Trust & believe. Leaning not to your own understanding but in all your ways acknowledging Me & I shall direct thy path. Change the subject....
... And I kept hearing them say, & Newtown was the safest place! Well as of today, its not known for that! Also, I got another issue with this. Now if the person who killed all these ppl & himself was still alive. This story would have gonna a lot differently, I believe! However, this person killed all these ppl & himself! Leaving them to jump to conclusion(which they do so well of a job doing). Did I tell u I don't like the News? Well, I don't like the News Media! I don't trust them, I don't believe pretty much nothing they say. And I personal, hate to even listen to anything which comes out of their mouth. This might seem harsh, but do u recall the time when Moses was instructed to go say, Let My ppl go that they might worship me? Do u recall what all happen before they all got away on dry ground? What all it took to free them? My next question is -do everytime something happen in manners like this is it God instructing ppl to get emotional & say they feel the pain & or their hearts are broken & their heart goes out to the families? In times like these & so many other ones, I just wonder what are God's thoughts. What was/is His plans & thoughts. What does He expect to happen? What is He saying????? Cont.....
Bro Tyler all I can say is to God be the Glory for the Great things He has done in your life and mine. I thank God for your sensitivity, your obedience, and your love for others. What your mother gave you was the best gift anyone could give her sone, Jesus. We mothers may not have all the material things our children want or think they need, but if we give them Jesus and give them love and family.and bring them up in the nurture and admonition of God then we are truly blessed. If we seek God first then all other things will be added to our life. I am an older single parent and I pray I have given my children a legacey of God' s love. Not only to my children but to all the children I have taught over the years. My God continue to bless you mightily Tyler.
Good Evening T! & Hi! :-) I come just to release a few things/thoughts/feelings/cares/concerns. Who knows what else. I'm almost certain I will be posting several times on tonight. That's for sure. :-) One reason that I know I won't jam all my thoughts into one post is I have learned that when doing so, I her this very strange guy popping up making this funny face at me & it don't post. Lol... The first time that happen I was like, No he didn't! But every since then, I just sat, well, maybe I was just suppose to get that out & it wasn't for any1 else to read, hear etc. Lol... Ok, FYI: I am someone who really do not like the News! Just the sound of it is unwanted to me. Why of course I have heard about what they say happen in NEW-TOWN on today. It's indeed gonna be a New-town after today! That's all I gonna touch on about that. Secondly, Lord Jesus have mercy! Ok, everytime something happens like this or whatever. Everybody wanna go saying, we're praying, let's come together & pray on so & so's behalf. Somebody tell me who can bring these kids back & or these adults back to their families here on earth? Can anybody tell you that? Prayer isn't accepted in schools these days. For some unknown reason. But anytime there is something that ppl can't answer to they go to saying, let's pray. My question is, what are you gonna pray & to whom are you gonna pray to & are you really praying or are you being emotional by this, as other situations cause its done touched you? Of course I'm not talking about you, meaning you! I'm just trying to express myself. There is nothing no one can say to a hurting parent, child, love one, family member etc & that person won't see them again & had no clue of it this morning. Cont....
No Tyler, we don't really know how your day went on set (12/05/12). So, how was your day? LOL. What's planned for tomorrow(today)? What was the little kids doing & how long did it take for you all to get that photo taken? I really couldnt tell were the twins real or dolls. What I did see is one looking up at u & the other one crying. All the kids except one was looking at the camera. You was saying in your Alex Cross interview -what camera are we looking into? And when u are doing your Red Carpet Live Events, I watch u as u give them a quick instruction without words. Lol... Lol... :-) It's so beautiful to see you in action, doing your thing. Would u say that you are bossy? Not in a bad way. I'm just asking. :-) Well, I just wanna to come by & chat/check on you before turning it in for tonight. :-) And thanks for the picture from onset. It made my day. I actually couldn't stop laugh. I'm laughing as we speak, right now. Oh, and the first poster for your soon to come Movie: Temptation: Confessions of a Marriage Counselor which comes out on 03/29/13; that poster is HOT! H-O-T HOT! And kinda deep, if I might add! Wow! Genesis! In this 2012 year u been doing your thang like no other T! I expect God Our Father to take good good care of you every step of the way. And I trust that He will & is! As you do what you do. Good night T, love you! Ttyl :-) Thanks for everything! I always tell u & I will tell you again, you're the best! :-)
Here's something else T! Why is it we as people are so quick to say, let go of your past! Just leave it in the past & press on. What is one pressing on to without dealing with their past, history, life, truth, etc? Don't get me wrong, I now understand more about this faith walk & I understand that trust is very essential/important. How is one to help another if he or she has forgotten their own past? And perhaps they might feel they have arrived or something? That I don't get! What I can tell u is that right there hurts a lot of people! Ask me how I know? One of the other things I so adore about u is, u, Tyler put it out there for us to grab a hold of. And u, brought laughter to us, & u, dressed up as a Madea, being Tyler Perry, a man to show people, all people how a woman can love. That came from on the inside of you. As a man u took it upon yourself to love us women so much that u did what u did. Now I'm not sure how u have helped the brothers but they are not what I'm speaking about at this time. That famous line in DOAMBW, u said, this is FOR EVERY woman.... (u know what it says u wrote it) :-) LoL.... (that's your famous line, too!) Pity parties when it comes to myself, I don't do! However, its a wonderful feeling to know that someone is genuinely concerned about u. There are two men that I know(of) that has be able to speak to women/females/girls about being a female in a positive way & those two men are Bishop & yourself! :-) Coming into contact with both of u, I had to ask myself questions. Now that I'm this close to you I can just talk with you now! I'm not intimidated any longer by you. Even though I still might be a little shy when it comes to you. Lol... :-) I appreciate you both & I am so grateful to God for you both. And you both really do matter to me. (I got that from Oprah on today!) Lol... :-) It's so well put. So, I'll be using it pretty often. Lol... :-) Yes! You're the best T!!! Don't ever allow anyone to tell u differently. Only God knows all the millions & millions u have helped by the grace of God. AND U DO know wherever u go, I AM GOING TOO! Yes, I am! Prepare me room please Sir, thank u very much. Simple! :-) And in closing this time, I gotta say, YOU DID THAT!!!! :) #LOVE
Hey T, tonight I would like to bring up a topic/subject/issue/situation that I been pondering on. This pass Saturday I was sitting up in D'Andre's Debate Award Ceremon, which had high school & middle school students there from many schools here in Dallas. Before the presenter started issuing off their awards. She addressed a few issues that was brought to her attention thru out the day(9AM-4PM). The 1, she felt was really horrible was the high school students who must have been all over their mates during certain times & she felt they should not have been carrying on like that in front of these middle school students. Farthermore, she felt that it wasn't acceptable to behave in that way. My concern is this: Are we as people, parents, etc not allowing our children to see love & affection all these many years. Making it out to be bad & unacceptable. When we each have done it, or will do it sometime or another. Growing up in my families household my dad & mom greeted one another w/ a kiss(peck) upon entering or exiting; when he came in from work or as he left out to go to work etc. There was no other time where I remember seeing them just hugged up cuddling. And I for sure couldn't think of the thought of them having intercourse! But we each got here, which means all of it did take place! So my question is why would we make something that's so beautiful look to be so unacceptable to speak on & be open about? It's strange to me, that kids can see all these struggles of life, downfalls, up & downs but can't see & enjoy growing up see & respecting the power of love between two in love human beings. That's strange to me! We as people can walk around & have to tolerate seeing males holding up their pants without a belt & have to look at his underwear before we take seeing two people in love sharing a kiss or hug? Something is really wrong with that picture! I believe when you can grow up seeing your parents, adults, etc share & show love & affection to one another (yes, it might feel odd or strange; for that moment. But they will grow up & hopefully approach it in a better manner than what we have seen so far.) I will be speaking on this some more T. Remember, you are my Notebook! Lol... :-) And whatever parts u feel the need to use, just feel free too! I trust you! :-) In closing why have we as people put feelings on the back burner as if God didn't give us them? Hmmm something to think about. :-) We will continue this conversation at a later time. Then maybe u will have somethings to say, as well. Ttyl. I love you T! :-) Peace, Love & Happiness!!! LoL... :-)
Amen,My mother left me the same,I truly feel your pain,when I loss my mother in December 28th 1993,I had to see psychologist,holidays are different all the way to her cooking and her smile,she had a good heart like your Mother and always told me to trust in the Lord also,I know I get being a good hearted person from her and the Lord because what she did`nt see me do the Lord saw me and got me,so I tried to stay out of trouble,Tyler I saw your picture of the refrigerator,I Felt You,whatever I can let me.you have my number let mr know,I can`t replace your mom cooking,I wont even try,but I can cook some of what she fix and my mom and grandmother recipes.
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LOL It did it again. LOL :-) Have a good night T! Oh, how is the movie shooting going? :-) How long of a day are u all working? Is there a certain time of the day or night u all pack up & call it the day? How long will you all be at it this time? Are you having FUN?! :-) Has everything been well for you & your crew? Now this is exciting! For one, we never know how u are coming & what u gonna deliver in your movie. It's always a joy to see your work. Even though I'm thinking about you. Not missing u! Missing is like missing an appointment. Which isn't good. So, I'm not missing u, I'm thinking of you. :P lol.... And I must say, its been pretty quiet around here without you. :-) A man gotta do what a man gotta do, though. Bless you Hun! I adore you from your Head to your toes. Proper Preparation Prevents Poor Performance. Whatever that's suppose to mean. How do u feel? Have u been serious today or playful. Or maybe a little of both? I would like to be there to see/witness you in action/doing what you do. Yes, thats what I would like! I don't wanna act. I want to see this for myself! That's what I would like. Let me know when you can make that happen. Because I am serious. Not serious as a heart attack. I'm just period blank serious. :-) That's what I want! That's what I would like. I been wanting to do that. I would sit up & say, I need to follow him around. Lol... I just want to be there! :-) Work it out for me please T? Thank you. You know I appreciate you. I will be sitting there just quietly observing you do what you do! :-) I'm going to be just sitting there smiling & looking. You wanna bet? I bet you! Watch what I tell you, T!!! Ok, I told u what I want. :-) I'll be waiting. So, let me know & don't keep me waiting too long. Lol... Or else! Or else what!? Lol.... Lol...:-)